July 2010
breathe. breathe. breath.
this isn't how it was supposed to be.
dear whole foods, please hire me very, very soon....
There is a pleasure in the pathless woods; There...
i should be floating but im weighted down by...
i miss my notebook.
listening to Pink Floyd’s, Wish You Were Here on vinyl. one of my favorite albums. i have fallen in love with the snapping and crackling of the record player.
home doesn’t feel like home anymore. i’m tired of this town and seeing the same faces day after day.
i took a nap today. i feel like the older i get, the younger i actually get. nap times are key these days. i mostly...
i dont know what it is about this song.
it...
the nook.
sitting in the nook of my new room.
the window is open.
dr. dog is playing.
i love this.
my own place.
it doesn’t feel real.
i want a plant for my window sill.
too bad i would kill it within a week.
oh well.
savers, here we come.
i'm leaving for good. and i'm taking the cat. i...
enough is enough.
one thing after another.
im exhausted.
mentally and physically.
give me a damn break already, whoever you are.
get me out of this town.
everyone, and everything has disappointed me.
overwhelming thoughts
what do i do when my big brother comes up to me crying? how can i make the strongest person i know feel better?
after everything he has helped me with and got me through, i dont know what to say to him. nothing can fix this. its a nightmare i live with everyday. i dont want him to live with it too.
i wish she was here more than anything right now. she always knew how to make him feel better,...
i just wrote out this long extravagant post, and then deleted it.
basically the only thing thats on my mind is how much i REALLY FUCKING HATE MONEY.
also, i need to stop smoking weed for at least three weeks. im going to be miserable.
weed has been the only thing keeping my semi-sane.. for the past two years.
being responsible sucks dick.
7-11-98.
since i work at a grocery store in a small town, i see a lot of people on a daily basis. i see my regulars, the old people, the moms, the coupon lady, joseph, and occasionally a few strange figures are thrown in there.
well today, i got one of those strange figures. i saw him walk through the door as i was just standing there staring into space scanning groceries. he was tall and had a horrible...
july 8th.
today.
today i applied for an opening at Whole Foods as a cashier. I have always wanted to work at whole foods. i like working at a grocery store, just not shaws. shaws is gross, and im sick of 96.8% of the people i work with. lets hope i get this job, it would make life easier.
and if i get this job, that means i can move to Beverly for the rest of the summer. i am so tired of this little town...
home is wherever im with you.
